Fail.

The project I was working on failed. Major failed. I had dreams of make a new header and getting my brother-in-law to make me a new background because he's good with all that html stuff. But, it failed. So once I have even more time to spend on it I will.

This past week has been crazy. End of the marking period meant getting grades done. It was the first time I did it. Wow craziness. The phone calls because parents thought grades were wrong. CHECK YOUR KIDS' FOLDERS! I add a grade sheet in there every Friday. I put every paper in there with the grade on tap. I explain what was wrong about the wrong answer. I put the correct answer next to it. It was frustrating.

No one has been sick in our house, a first in awhile. I've been sneezing like crazy, but that's allergies. Some a-hole mowed their lawn. Thanks, jerk.

We only have 4 full weeks of school left. How sweet. It's somewhere around 30 days of school left! I didn't update the countdown on the board lately so I don't remember. All I can say is I can't wait. I can't wait for summer.

Next week I'm going to be seeing a sleep specialist for my abnormal sleep patterns. Did you know that in the United States their is only 4 psychiatrists that are certified/qualified to be a sleep disorder specialist in additon to being a psychiatrist? The doctor I'm seeing is one of those doctors! I won't lie, I'm a little nervous about it because I hate new doctors. I hate doctors. I hate specialists and having the higher copay. I'm sure that eventually I'll need a sleep study. Great, freakin' great. That excites me. Not. Especially the doctors for, you know, your feminine parts. I hate those appointments. Every year I dread the appointment. Every single year!

Every morning the first thing I hear is "How many more days until I go to kindergarten, Mommy?" Every single morning. I want to poke my eyeballs out with a pencil. Preston gets into everything. I can't wait until he realizes running into the gate does not work to get it down.

That's all for now, I'm tired.

Where Is Life Going?

Some days I have no clue where my life is going. Some days I do. Some days I feel this isn't the life I wanted. But most days I do!

I'm 22, almost 23. Engaged. College graduate. Mommy. I own my own house. I own my own cars. But I do not have a full time job. And that's a bit scary. Especially with another baby on the way.

Most will argue that I'm too young to have kids. If you're one of them, then just leave. Seriously. I raise my kids perfectly fine. I put them before everything. I don't spend time on the computer when they're around. I leave my computer open, on the coffee table in front of me, but I don't use it. My kids probably watch too much tv. It's my decision and I'm not going to make them read books every second of every day. Sure, I want them to be intelligent. I want them to do something with their life. But I'm not going to shelter them from the outside world.

I probably seem like I'm a stuck-up snob. If that's the case, sorry! Sure, I was popular in high school. But, I lost a lot of not-so-true friends when I became pregnant with Abbie. I then realized that I wouldn't have the life I imagined. But I'm perfectly fine with where my life went!

I say the wrong things at the wrong time. I have almost lost Ryan so many times of it.

Lately, I'm not happy with myself. I feel I'm not living the right life. That life isn't going where I wanted it. I guess I'll just have to learn to live with myself.

If you don't hear from me for a few day, Sorry! I'm trying to find some kind of job, although I know it won't happen. I'm trying to spend time with my kids too. I update twitter several times daily. You can follow me there or on my sidebar. !

500+ first day!

This is my 500th post! WOWWW.

Today was kinda like a first day. An awesome first day. I promise, to update tonight or tomorrow. Right now, I'm going to pick out my clothing for tomorrow. Yes, another day with them tomorrow and I'm beyond excited! :)

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If you follow me on twitter, you already know this, but if not, I got a call today to substitute next week for the teacher in the elementary school who i student taught with. I'm so excited and can't wait! :D

All Done!

I visited 3 elementary schools, two middle schools, and three high schools today. I have a guaranteed substituting position at on elementary and one high school. I'll give you the whole story later. Now, I'm going to relax after a long, yet successful day!

Randomness

So here's just a bunch of stuff being thrown out there since I can't sleep and it's 1:57am.

I spent wayyyy too much money today. I bought some stuff that was need and some stuff that wasn't. But, I used all Christmas money and giftcards.


Ryan and I had pictures taken today. Kinda random pictures. But probably our last pictures as a family of four. I know for a fact once we get closer to May, I won't want to be getting pictures taken!


Dairy queen should not be within half a mile of a pregnant person. Seriously.


My sister, her boyfriend, and kids will be living with us come the new year. I'm kinda excited. As pam said, I'll have an in house sitter. haha. Just kidding! I would never make her watch four kids! Depending on how much stuff she has depends on what we do for living quarters. Her living room furniture is going in the basement, probably, unless she finds someone who wants it. And she's taking Abbie's room and Abbie's room will be my office. Who knows where I'm putting all that stuff. Oh well. We'll work it out somehow. I'm sure Abbie won't be happy when I tell her that she's going to be residing in the second floor of our home, but she will be happy that her little cousing are going to be living with us!


Sometime soon,I hope, I'm going to start applying for substitute jobs. Just have to get everything together. Let's hope that I can find some kind of long-term substituting job.. that would help greatly.


now, i'm going to try and sleep.