Today was my first day. It went really good. I have a feeling I'm going to love this job! It's my major (Music Education) and my minor (Elementary Education) put together! It makes me happy! :)
i think i jinxed myself. i got no sleep last night. okay, maybe half an hour. if that. no sleep today. katy had a doctors appointment. and then when we got home i discovered that abbie and preston had no clean shirts. so i had to do a load of laundry. i found my old yearbooks today. they made me laugh a little. and then i fell asleep for about 5 minutes with katy. and woke up to her screaming. now we're all going to bed. tomorrow is my birthday so were going to try and go out to eat. key word- try.
i slept. i feel good. i slept from 2-4am and then from 5:15-7am and 8-11am. amazing. i feel so good. and i slept from 10:30-12am last night. it felt good to sleep in my own bed.
i spent most of the day just laying around with katy. i did do a load of laundry because i needed some clean shorts. and i cleaned a bunch of bottles because we needed clean bottles too. katy's doctor didn't have any appointments for thursday and he has 2 surgeries on friday so she has an appointment tomorrow at 11am. abbie and preston came home tonight around 6. it was so good to see them. i took a shower while my mom was still here. and that made me feel even better. showers always make me feel better. i didn't make dinner tonight. feels weird. i make dinner almost every night. it's 8:47 already. today went so fast. i guess i should give abbie a bath since she won't take a bath in any other tub than ours. and she hasn't had one yet today.
we're home. finally. my house smells so good. feels so nice to lay in bed. a big comfortable bed with ryan and katy. i was finally discharged around 9:30 or so.. and we got home around 10:15.
the doctor told me last night that they'd have me out of there by noon. the doctor this morning said he wanted to wait until later in the afternoon. the new doctor came in at 3. it was the same one i had last night. he asked me why i was still there and i had no clue why. he said he would be back he had a surgery to do. he went and did his thing. afterwards he stopped in to make sure we were okay. then he had to go deliver another baby. he finally came back around 9 to discuss everything. i'll set up an appointment with him for thursday tomorrow i guess. this afternoon i decided to change into 'normal' clothing. and i put a tad bit of makeup on. not much. after getting dressed and doing my makeup, i felt much better. i really wanted to get home before abbie and preston went to bed.. but that didn't happen. they're over at my moms. shes keeping them all day tomorrow. which is good.
I'm on my way
Well I'm on my way
Home sweet home
Tonight tonight
I'm on my way
Just set me free
Home sweet home
-Motley Crue
Home Sweet Home
*re-made by carrie underwood too.
i'm not sleepy. my 2 hours earlier really helped. but i know i need the sleep. since thursday i think i've had no more than 10-12 hours of sleep. and i'm not used to that. i understand when you have a newborn you don't get much sleep. but with preston and abbie i got a decent amount o sleep. i think once were home i'll be able to sleep much more during the day. no nurses checking on me. no doctors. no beeping sounds. a comortable couch and bed.
i planned for this post to be a little longer and have stuff other than what i've told you in the past how ever many posts... but katy wants the attention. actually, she just wants food. night people.
my little blue eyed babe is sleeping on my chest right now. i can't stop staring into her beautiful eyes. i feel great. i'm still e-mailing family members. the ones who live out of state.. and i don't have their phone number.
over the past 2 days in hell
both my 'neighbors' gave birth. while i was trying to sleep.
i slept about a total of 10 hours. on and off.
i was really nauseous yesterday.
i took about 5-6 walks a day.
i held the pictures of abbie and preston close to my heart.
i have wanted to stab every nurse that i've had with my IV needle.
i really wanted to hurt my nurse earlier when she told me the dr left for the day.
i've been dreaming on sleeping in my own comfortable bed.
i've been dreaming of eating good food. hospital food sucks.
i have missed my boyfriend when he wasn't here.
i have missed my kids.
i have missed my students that i spent the last 3 months with.
i have spent a ton of time on the internet.
i didn't imagine spending our anniversary laying in a hospital bed. but we got a pretty good anniversary present.
i'm going to stare into katy's blue eyes. and fall asleep with her.
what do you think of her name- katy kristine? do you like it? yes? no?
about 10 minutes after posting my last post my doctor came in.. because I was ready to kill the nurse who told me he wasn't available, i knew it was time but that little bitch said he left for the night. i know better. i know my dr. at
an hour ago at 8:13 Katy Kristine made her grand arrival.
she was 9lbs. 15oz.
21in. long.
ryan is sitting on the chair with abbie and katy. we'll be home on monday. i'll be able to eat my own food. use my own soft toilet paper. lay in my own bed. watch my own tv. no needles. no nurses. no beeping sounds.
The project I was working on failed. Major failed. I had dreams of make a new header and getting my brother-in-law to make me a new background because he's good with all that html stuff. But, it failed. So once I have even more time to spend on it I will.
This past week has been crazy. End of the marking period meant getting grades done. It was the first time I did it. Wow craziness. The phone calls because parents thought grades were wrong. CHECK YOUR KIDS' FOLDERS! I add a grade sheet in there every Friday. I put every paper in there with the grade on tap. I explain what was wrong about the wrong answer. I put the correct answer next to it. It was frustrating.
No one has been sick in our house, a first in awhile. I've been sneezing like crazy, but that's allergies. Some a-hole mowed their lawn. Thanks, jerk.
We only have 4 full weeks of school left. How sweet. It's somewhere around 30 days of school left! I didn't update the countdown on the board lately so I don't remember. All I can say is I can't wait. I can't wait for summer.
Next week I'm going to be seeing a sleep specialist for my abnormal sleep patterns. Did you know that in the United States their is only 4 psychiatrists that are certified/qualified to be a sleep disorder specialist in additon to being a psychiatrist? The doctor I'm seeing is one of those doctors! I won't lie, I'm a little nervous about it because I hate new doctors. I hate doctors. I hate specialists and having the higher copay. I'm sure that eventually I'll need a sleep study. Great, freakin' great. That excites me. Not. Especially the doctors for, you know, your feminine parts. I hate those appointments. Every year I dread the appointment. Every single year!
Every morning the first thing I hear is "How many more days until I go to kindergarten, Mommy?" Every single morning. I want to poke my eyeballs out with a pencil. Preston gets into everything. I can't wait until he realizes running into the gate does not work to get it down.
That's all for now, I'm tired.
School days in the high school start at 7:44. I got a call at 7am asking if I could come in for half a day in the music classroom. Uh sure. Next time, give me more notice! K. Thanks.
It was more than half day. The teacher came in at the beginning of seventh period. Seriously. Was it worth it? Two period? But whatever. I didn't have time to find something in the cupboards for lunch so it was the mystery meat in the cafeteria. The mystery meat of today- Popcorn Chicken. It was freakin' good. Lunch was never that good when I was in high school. But holy hell, yum yum.
Abbie just got over a 24hour bug.. well actually she got over it yesterday. I think she caught it at church. But she's feeling better and back to her normal self. Her normal, energetic, loud self..
Now it's time to go eat some yummy dinner. More chicken! and poor man's macaroni! Yummmm.
Today was a day of what and why in our house and let me tell you, I'm ready to rip my hair out!
10am
Abbie: Mommy, what's that? *pointing to wii remote* *The kid knows what it is! she plays the wii*
Me: Abbie, don't start.
A: Mommy, what is it?
M: Abbigail, you know what it is. Now stop
A: No I don't.
M: Abbigail Leeanne, if you don't stop I'm taking your baby doll!
A: NO! WAHHHHHHHHH. DON'T TAKE BABY. WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
M: Then stop asking questions about the wii remote!
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11:45am
Setting: I'm making lunch. Ryan's paying bills at the kitchen table. I'm holding Preston and Abbie is watching.
A: Mommy, what is that? *points to butter*
M: That's butter.
A: Why are you using that?
M: Because I want to.
A: But why?
M: Abbie, stop!
A: But why?
M: Abbigail, stop now. Or baby is going bye-bye!
A: WAHHHHHHH.
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1pm in the car
A: Where are we going?
M: To the mall.
A: Why?
M: So I can return stuff.
A: Why?
Ryan: Abbie, Stop. Now.
A: Why?
M: Abbigail, if you don't stop, were going home and your not watching any television.
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and that was our day.
if you can't tell, I was extremely irritated everytime I heard why and what.
i'll have pictures tomorrow!
I feel like my belly just grew over night. Over the past week, I have outgrown almost all of my jeans. Oh Em Gee. I've been wearing sweatpants if I don't have to leave the house. Actually, I have left the house in sweatpants. But whatever!
Tomorrow Ryan has a dentist appointment. According to Burgh Baby's Mom, the know-it-alls, AKA doctors/professionals say you should take them to the dentist at age three. Hello, kids don't sit still. Your sticking shit in their mouths.. NO COMMON SENSE! I'm going to make an appointment for over the summer. Then were heading to the mall to get some pictures taken and do some shopping. Then to the farm show.
Now, it's Bachelor time!!
I made it home safely. I'm dead tired. I walked in the house to see Abbie already sleeping and Ryan rocking Preston to sleep.
My kids NEVER go to sleep this early. Wowww. I'm sure they won't sleep all night. In fact, I know Preston won't.!
I'm bored to tears. I'm so glad that we're doing something tomorrow. Don't know what though. I'm like ready to sleep.
We made it here by about 2pm. I slept pretty much the whole way up.
I'm missing my kids and Ryan but I'm also glad to get away.
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Pam, Preston has Ryan's last name. I want to look into eventually getting Abbie's name changed too. Ryan and I have talked about Abbie's dad giving up his rights, since he doesn't bother with her, and letting Ryan adopt her since he's the only father figure in her life. I understand that if her father does give up his rights he doesn't have to pay child support, and I'm perfectly fine with that. I wouldn't have to worry about dealing with his bull shit anymore.
I'm going to do a post on the whole thing sometime next week when I return home.
I never realized how much attention Abbie lost when Preston entered the world almost a year ago. Boy do I owe her!
It all started this morning around 10am. I was cleaning up Preston's room. Abbie was playing in her room and Preston and Ryan were relaxing on the couch. I heard Ryan getting up and saying "Ok buddy, daddy will be back later. Love ya bud." Before he had a chance to come into Preston's room I blurted "Where are you going?" "Well I was planning on going to Cabelas for the day." Woahh.. I clearly stated that he was not leaving the house without his 10 month old son. He huffed and puffed and finally saw some good in it. He would get the chance to introduce his precious baby boy, who will probably be a hunter, to all things every hunter loves. It just wouldn't make sense if he wasn't. Ryan, his brother, his dad, my brother, my dad, my cousins and uncles all hunt. If this kid is not a hunter, who knows what he'll be. Ryan and Preston were out the door by 11am and left the house to Abbie and I.. well my sister and her family were there.. but I barely even notice they're here. By the way, totally off topic, my sister is watching the kids tomorrow so I can put effort into finding a job! Thanks Cait! Love ya. Back to our day.. I decided to make home-made pot pie. Yummm. I made Chicken, Ham, and Pork. Yummy! While Abbie was helping me she goes "momma, I really miss being with just you." That broke my heart. I'm going to set aside a day each week to spend with just her. And it breaks my heart that once this next baby comes Preston will loose more time. I don't know how I'm going to do it, but I will. I'll learn to set aside a day for each of them and only them. I just hope that I don't favor any other them. I may feel like I'm favoring the new baby because s/he will need more attention. Oh boy. I'll learn to live a new life.. I guess.
So here's just a bunch of stuff being thrown out there since I can't sleep and it's 1:57am.
I spent wayyyy too much money today. I bought some stuff that was need and some stuff that wasn't. But, I used all Christmas money and giftcards.
Ryan and I had pictures taken today. Kinda random pictures. But probably our last pictures as a family of four. I know for a fact once we get closer to May, I won't want to be getting pictures taken!
Dairy queen should not be within half a mile of a pregnant person. Seriously.
My sister, her boyfriend, and kids will be living with us come the new year. I'm kinda excited. As pam said, I'll have an in house sitter. haha. Just kidding! I would never make her watch four kids! Depending on how much stuff she has depends on what we do for living quarters. Her living room furniture is going in the basement, probably, unless she finds someone who wants it. And she's taking Abbie's room and Abbie's room will be my office. Who knows where I'm putting all that stuff. Oh well. We'll work it out somehow. I'm sure Abbie won't be happy when I tell her that she's going to be residing in the second floor of our home, but she will be happy that her little cousing are going to be living with us!
Sometime soon,I hope, I'm going to start applying for substitute jobs. Just have to get everything together. Let's hope that I can find some kind of long-term substituting job.. that would help greatly.
now, i'm going to try and sleep.
Today I am 20 weeks pregnant.
I haven't really talked much about my pregnancy on here. It's going great. No complications. I'm finally starting to look fat. Not pregnant. So I'm way behind in the weight gain, but the doctors say everything is fine, so I'm not worried. I finally updated my babycenter account. It now has 3 children listed on the side. Not 2. I was supposed to have a doctor's appointment this past Monday but I decided to cancel it because the weather was horrible. It was cold and just yucky and I had no one to watch the kids. It turns out my doctor ended up having an emergency C-Section during the time my appointment was supposed to be, so it all worked out. I have a new doctor's appointment scheduled for this coming Monday at 9am. My mom is going with and if the baby decides to cooperate my mom will find out if were have a baby boy or girl. How were pulling it off, I don't know. But we will. My mom will buy all pink or blue stuff that I want and then I will reimburse her after the baby is here.
Ryan and I are getting more excited as the days go on. We often said we wanted another baby and then changed our minds. The last time we said we did, we said we would wait a few years. And then when I got that positive pregnancy test, we were scared. But it's getting easier and we've really watched how much we spend on things.
On babycenter, it says I should have gained about 10 pounds so far. I think I've gained 6 and just look fat. But in pictures you can't tell.. weird!
And, we've also decided we're not going to take any parenting classes. We took some before Preston came, and OMG Preston turned 10 months old yesterday! I feel we don't need them because we're perfect parents to Abbie and Preston. Ryan feels the same. If you feel that it's necessary, that's your own opinion. I'm following what I want. It's my body. My life. My kids. I'll do what I think is best for them and if no parenting classes is what I want, then deal with it!
Now, I'm going to play with the kids. Time to play with some new toys!
I love snow. I hate snow.
We're finally getting this snow storm and I'm overly delighted. But I'm not. I had to drive home tonight in the snow. By myself. With two kids. It was not fun. Abbie was ready to puke her guts out from drinking to much lemonade. Preston was screaming because he was tired. I was ready to scream, cry, rip my hair out, and pee myself. I'll post more later. Now I'm going to watch the snow fall. I'm in love!
Christmas is right around the corner. I am almost done shopping. I have Abbie's stuff, Preston's stuff, Ryan's stuff, Mom and Dad's, sister's, brother,and nieces and nephews
I'm not completely done with Ryan. I'll finish him in the next week or so. I save money all year long which is why I can spend so much at the holiday. The total between everyone is $584.34.
I spent $87.15 on my sister Caitlin's family.
I spent 100.65 on my sister Jocelyn's family. I spent more because she has a bigger family.
I spent $50 on my brother Tyler.
I spent $50 on my parents.
I spent $86.60 on Ryan so far.
I spent $105.97 on Abbie and $103.97 on Preston.
I'll post pictures and details later. I got Preston and Abbie all clothing because they need it and will get toys from the rest of the family.
And, I got good deals on everything.
I can't think of anything to post about... so.. I'm going to just do a post on the love of my life, the father of two and the father figure of one, Ryan Cole.
We met in high school. Somewhere in our freshman/sophomore year. I had a boyfriend on and off and he had a girlfriend on and off. But we were friends. We ended up going to junior & senior prom together. I had a a boyfriend but he didn't like stuff like that. If I have ever sent you pictures from the prom, I think I said they were from our senior year.. That was wrong. It was junior year. Anyway, we were really close friends and shared almost everything with each other. We would talk late at night and he would listen to me while I was going through the hardest time in my life, my parents were fighting non-stop and almost got divorced, I recently learned I was pregnant, and a few other problems. He would come over every weekend and we would sit and watch movies together and if we would talk about our problems he would wipe away my tears and tell me it would be ok and give me a kiss on the forehead. Sometimes I felt like I was cheating on Adam, but in my heart I knew I wasn't, that we were only friends.
After we graduated high school we lost contact until we started college where we had almost all of our classes together. I really didn't talk to him much. Finally on May 23, 2007 we went out with friends. I had no clue he was going to be there. I was delighted when he was because I really wanted him in my life now that I didn't have a boyfriend. We went to his apartment that night since we had some drinks and didn't want to drive. We did the nasty and a month later we found out we were expecting our first child in March of '08 which we thought was a girl, then a boy, then a girl again, then a boy again. We just prepared for either. He was at my house almost everynight over the summer and in August we bought our first house together.
We spent the holidays with both of our families and I began to grow closer to his family and I felt like his sisters were my own. I loved them then and I love them now.
On February 25, 2008 we welcomed our first baby, Preston Cole who was born at 8:03pm after 12 hours of labor and 26 minutes of pushing. He was 7lbs 6oz and 20in long. He had a full head of hair and completely healthy. The arrival of our little baby boy was quite stressful on us being full time students in college and caused many fights that cause a 3 week split-up. We got back together. We have never been happier.
We spend all our time trying to give both Abbie and Preston a healthy, happy childhood. Abbie loves her little brother and is constantly giving him kisses.
On May 23rd we celebrated our 1 year anniversary together.
On Wednesday, June 4th, 2008 Ryan proposed to me. I said yes. We've had our handful of fights since then that almost resulted in a break-up.
Our life has been a roller coaster of good and bad, but we deal with it.
In october of 2008, we learned that we would be expecting our 2nd child together in May of '09. We're both in shock and a little freaked out. We'll learn to live life as a family of five and manage to make the best of it.
We spend all our time taking care of the kids, playing with them, and enjoying our peace and quiet at night.
We will both graduate from Penn State on December 20th, 2008 with a major in Music Education. I'm excited to finally be out and find a good job. I know, it's going to be hard to find one.
That's us. And well, we're boring.
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This has nothing at all to do with this post, but we gained 2 new cars this weekend. Since we will have 3 kids in car seats, Abbie in a booster seat, Preston, in a 'big boy' seat, and the baby in a baby car seat, we need a bigger car. His dad got a new car and we gained his old Ford Explorer.. it really isn't old. It's only 2 years old.. or something like that. And we got his brother's truck. I love it. So, we have 5 cars. Two in the garage, 2 in the driveway, and one in the garage out back. We plan to get rid of the truck and maybe his car. Not sure. But we only have one car payment to make so it's not that bad.
