Few responses..

I'm going to start posting responses on here to comments received on hm.. last five posts that have comments. .. here goes. oldest to newest.

Snotty Mess-

1. From Pam- Tis the season! Everyone here is a snotty mess too. It does suck
2. From Dana- sorry you're feeling yucky! i hate that...
3. From Burgh Baby- Hope you are feeling better!

1. Pam, I am feeling much better.
   
2. Dana, I hate feeling sick. ick.
   
3. Burgh Baby, I am. Thanks.
   

What Do I Do-

1. From Pam- I iked to know and find out because then I can plan- bedrooms, clothes, names, etc. I just like being able to do all that. But I know lots of people who do not find out.
2. From Dana- i think it should be a surprise.. there are such few surprises in life!! but it is really your choice.. do what makes you happy!!!!
3. From Erin- O you can't find out the gender and NOT tell. That is unfair!!
   
   And about the pic..u can just use the same one you used. Unless you find something else. I'm not picky!!

1. Pam, I agree. With the first two I found out and it was easier. But with Preston we were told girl then boy then girl then boy.
   
2. Dana, We have decided to keep it a surprise. And yes, few things in life are a surprise which I decided to keep it a surprise because I don't plan for more kids. And I'm happy with my choice.
   
3. Erin, I'm just stupid like that and would make people wait :) And, I have the picture. I'll upload it to the blog! :)

Sick As A Dog-

1. From Pam- I'm so sorry you hear you are not feeling well. I'm glad you were able to take the day off and Ryan took care of you (how sweet!!). I hope you are feeling better!

1. I'm so happy I was able to take the day off. He always takes care of me. I take care of him. And I'm happy to have a man like that.
   

I have nothing..

1. From Pam- even though you have had some ups and downs- it sounds like you love each other and that is what is most important. You will figure out the family of 5 stuff- it will come.
2. From Danielle- awe..so sweet. pete and I have had many ups and downs. Greay story
3. From Erin- You know, I truly believe that no relationship can be successful until you come to the point of almost breaking up at least once. Sounds odd, I know. But sometimes you just have to get to that point.
   Great story..

1. Pam, I think every relationship is up and down. No relationship is completely easy with no fights. We do love each other although he tries to act like he doesn't when he's with friends. I think it will be easier to adjust to a baby over the summer and we will have more time with him/her than we did with Preston since he went back to school slmost immediately and I went back in a little over a month.
   
2. Danielle, He is the sweetest person in the world and I love him with everything I have. I think no relationship is complete without ups and downs. Thanks :)
3. Erin, We always had our times from beginning to now. I actually think our breakup was helpful. But who knows. We're happy and in love. It's a boring story compared to some!
   

.5

1. From Pam- Oh- that is romantic! I'm sitting on my big butt wrapped in a blanket because it is cold. I love the idea of a walk in the snow- but I get cold so quickly that I wouldn't actually go out. We got about the same amount of snow here.
2. From Erin- How sweet! It just started back up again here. We have big puffy flakes. Love this stuff!

1. It was. Trying to keep each other warm while talking and catching snowflakes on our tounges. But my new jacket keeps me warm. And so does Ryan. But now I'm in 2 pair of sweatpants, 2 shirts, a sweatshirt, and 3 pair of socks. We got a little more snow. Not much.
2. It is sweet. I don't think it really stopped at all yet.. let me check... yep, still snowing. It's not big and puffy but it's not real fine. More puffy but not big puffy.. hah. I'm Lovin' It! Hah, sound like McDonalds. Yum. Fruit and yogurt parfait.
   

Just so you all know what I think after I read your comments.

i didn't link to erin.. she's private.

.5

We got about .5 of an inch of snow.. maybe more. It's laying. It's freezing and it's slippy outside.
Ryan and I took a walk tonight in the snow and how romantic. It was wonderful!

I have nothing..

I can't think of anything to post about... so.. I'm going to just do a post on the love of my life, the father of two and the father figure of one, Ryan Cole.


We met in high school. Somewhere in our freshman/sophomore year. I had a boyfriend on and off and he had a girlfriend on and off. But we were friends. We ended up going to junior & senior prom together. I had a a boyfriend but he didn't like stuff like that. If I have ever sent you pictures from the prom, I think I said they were from our senior year.. That was wrong. It was junior year. Anyway, we were really close friends and shared almost everything with each other. We would talk late at night and he would listen to me while I was going through the hardest time in my life, my parents were fighting non-stop and almost got divorced, I recently learned I was pregnant, and a few other problems. He would come over every weekend and we would sit and watch movies together and if we would talk about our problems he would wipe away my tears and tell me it would be ok and give me a kiss on the forehead. Sometimes I felt like I was cheating on Adam, but in my heart I knew I wasn't, that we were only friends.

After we graduated high school we lost contact until we started college where we had almost all of our classes together. I really didn't talk to him much. Finally on May 23, 2007 we went out with friends. I had no clue he was going to be there. I was delighted when he was because I really wanted him in my life now that I didn't have a boyfriend. We went to his apartment that night since we had some drinks and didn't want to drive. We did the nasty and a month later we found out we were expecting our first child in March of '08 which we thought was a girl, then a boy, then a girl again, then a boy again. We just prepared for either. He was at my house almost everynight over the summer and in August we bought our first house together.

We spent the holidays with both of our families and I began to grow closer to his family and I felt like his sisters were my own. I loved them then and I love them now.

On February 25, 2008 we welcomed our first baby, Preston Cole who was born at 8:03pm after 12 hours of labor and 26 minutes of pushing. He was 7lbs 6oz and 20in long. He had a full head of hair and completely healthy. The arrival of our little baby boy was quite stressful on us being full time students in college and caused many fights that cause a 3 week split-up. We got back together. We have never been happier.

We spend all our time trying to give both Abbie and Preston a healthy, happy childhood. Abbie loves her little brother and is constantly giving him kisses.

On May 23rd we celebrated our 1 year anniversary together.

On Wednesday, June 4th, 2008 Ryan proposed to me. I said yes. We've had our handful of fights since then that almost resulted in a break-up.

Our life has been a roller coaster of good and bad, but we deal with it.

In october of 2008, we learned that we would be expecting our 2nd child together in May of '09. We're both in shock and a little freaked out. We'll learn to live life as a family of five and manage to make the best of it.

We spend all our time taking care of the kids, playing with them, and enjoying our peace and quiet at night.

We will both graduate from Penn State on December 20th, 2008 with a major in Music Education. I'm excited to finally be out and find a good job. I know, it's going to be hard to find one.

That's us. And well, we're boring.

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This has nothing at all to do with this post, but we gained 2 new cars this weekend. Since we will have 3 kids in car seats, Abbie in a booster seat, Preston, in a 'big boy' seat, and the baby in a baby car seat, we need a bigger car. His dad got a new car and we gained his old Ford Explorer.. it really isn't old. It's only 2 years old.. or something like that. And we got his brother's truck. I love it. So, we have 5 cars. Two in the garage, 2 in the driveway, and one in the garage out back. We plan to get rid of the truck and maybe his car. Not sure. But we only have one car payment to make so it's not that bad.

Since she asked me to do this..

It's Ryan. Becka asked me last night when we were laying in bed if I would do a post. I said sure.. Why not.
So here goes.

Rebecka and I met back when we were freshmen in college, but we were just friends. I had a girlfriend, she had a boyfriend. We hung out together all the time, went on double dates. My girlfriend happened to be her friend Malissa. We broke up after dating for a year.. just because. In our junior year of college after Rebecka and her boyfriend broke up, we started going out on Friday nights and having some drinks and just hung out together and had a good time. One night, after drinking waaay too much, we went back to my apartment and well, you know. a month later, we found out we were expecting our baby together in March 2008. We actually had just started dating when she got pregnant, at the end of May. We didn't know until the end of June.. She was late. We moved in together into her parents' guest house. We lived there until August when we decided to buy her grandfather's house in Lykens. We moved in mid August.. hot ass weather. Our first Christmas togeter was amazing. I decided that even though we hadn't been dating long, I wanted to marry her. She was the women of my dreams and I loved her more than anything. of course she said yes. We continued our normal lives together. Preston Cole was born on February 25th, 2008. Probably one of the happiest days of my life. Right then and there, I realized that my life changed. I was now a dad. She was a mom again. The first few nights were rough and I felt bad because she was alone all day with him. I was trying to help her at night, but she refused to let me help because she didn't want me to not have enough sleep for school. We started argueing and broke up for a few weeks. Those few weeks were horrible. I couldn't live with the fact that I was the reason we broke up. I called her about a week or two ago and asked if I could come for a visit and we could talk about some that thing that were eating away my insides, and possibly her's too. We talked and decided that we wanted each other back. And it was the most amazing moment in my life when she said that. And then, when we had our first kiss since the breakup, it was amazing. It was like having your first kiss. ever. I didn't want it to end. Now that we are back together, our relationship is stronger than ever. We said why consider it an actual breakup, it didn't even last a month, so it's like we were never apart. So on May 25th, we will be celebrating our 1 year anniversary. I love her with all my heart and I never want to lose her again. I'm so glad we met each other. I'm so glad she is the mother of my son. She means everything to me. I would go to the end of the world for her. I would even take a bullet and risk my life so she would survive because I know for a fact I couldn't live with myself if I just let her die and not try and stop the person shooting. I would probably end up dieing myself. She means everything to me. I plan on marrying her in a few years.

Even though Abbie isn't my biological daughter, I love her to death. It feels like she is my daughter. Looking back on how hard Becka struggled to earn money and support the both of them and go to school, it breaks my heart. I think no one should have to go through that. Abbie has changed my life greatly, she makes me want to hold onto everything I have and never give it up. I consider her my daughter and I'm practically raising her. Her father left when she wasn't quite three. I've been with her for 11 months, she is like my own. She even sometimes calls me daddy, which doesn't bother me or becka. She doesn't really know her dad, and she probably never will.

My life changed dramatically on February 25th 2008. We welcomed a healthy baby son into the world. When I heard that first cry and saw him for the first time, I felt so alive and felt that I had something to live for. And seeing Becka in so much pain just to bring him into this world, made it even better. Seeing her do that made me see how much she cares. He is my everything. He has changed who I am. He makes me strive to meet my goals. I hope one day when he is older I can tell him all about his childhood and newborn stage. I want him to know how much we love him and that we would do anything for him. I want the best for him, Abbie, and Becka. All three of them are the loves of my life. I would do ANYTHING for all three of them. I hope all of you who are reading this would do the same for your kids and significant other if you have kids and S.O. I hope that Preston and Abbie good luck in all they do and that they become successful and don't have to worry about if they can pay their bills or if they will have enough money for food. I want them to have the best life they can have.

Basically, I have the best life I could ask for. I'm so blessed to have all three of them in my life. I never want that to change. They all are something special in my mind and have a special place in my heart. If they ever leave, I will feel so empty. I will have a huge hole in my heart.
Thanks for reading!