Since she asked me to do this..

It's Ryan. Becka asked me last night when we were laying in bed if I would do a post. I said sure.. Why not.
So here goes.

Rebecka and I met back when we were freshmen in college, but we were just friends. I had a girlfriend, she had a boyfriend. We hung out together all the time, went on double dates. My girlfriend happened to be her friend Malissa. We broke up after dating for a year.. just because. In our junior year of college after Rebecka and her boyfriend broke up, we started going out on Friday nights and having some drinks and just hung out together and had a good time. One night, after drinking waaay too much, we went back to my apartment and well, you know. a month later, we found out we were expecting our baby together in March 2008. We actually had just started dating when she got pregnant, at the end of May. We didn't know until the end of June.. She was late. We moved in together into her parents' guest house. We lived there until August when we decided to buy her grandfather's house in Lykens. We moved in mid August.. hot ass weather. Our first Christmas togeter was amazing. I decided that even though we hadn't been dating long, I wanted to marry her. She was the women of my dreams and I loved her more than anything. of course she said yes. We continued our normal lives together. Preston Cole was born on February 25th, 2008. Probably one of the happiest days of my life. Right then and there, I realized that my life changed. I was now a dad. She was a mom again. The first few nights were rough and I felt bad because she was alone all day with him. I was trying to help her at night, but she refused to let me help because she didn't want me to not have enough sleep for school. We started argueing and broke up for a few weeks. Those few weeks were horrible. I couldn't live with the fact that I was the reason we broke up. I called her about a week or two ago and asked if I could come for a visit and we could talk about some that thing that were eating away my insides, and possibly her's too. We talked and decided that we wanted each other back. And it was the most amazing moment in my life when she said that. And then, when we had our first kiss since the breakup, it was amazing. It was like having your first kiss. ever. I didn't want it to end. Now that we are back together, our relationship is stronger than ever. We said why consider it an actual breakup, it didn't even last a month, so it's like we were never apart. So on May 25th, we will be celebrating our 1 year anniversary. I love her with all my heart and I never want to lose her again. I'm so glad we met each other. I'm so glad she is the mother of my son. She means everything to me. I would go to the end of the world for her. I would even take a bullet and risk my life so she would survive because I know for a fact I couldn't live with myself if I just let her die and not try and stop the person shooting. I would probably end up dieing myself. She means everything to me. I plan on marrying her in a few years.

Even though Abbie isn't my biological daughter, I love her to death. It feels like she is my daughter. Looking back on how hard Becka struggled to earn money and support the both of them and go to school, it breaks my heart. I think no one should have to go through that. Abbie has changed my life greatly, she makes me want to hold onto everything I have and never give it up. I consider her my daughter and I'm practically raising her. Her father left when she wasn't quite three. I've been with her for 11 months, she is like my own. She even sometimes calls me daddy, which doesn't bother me or becka. She doesn't really know her dad, and she probably never will.

My life changed dramatically on February 25th 2008. We welcomed a healthy baby son into the world. When I heard that first cry and saw him for the first time, I felt so alive and felt that I had something to live for. And seeing Becka in so much pain just to bring him into this world, made it even better. Seeing her do that made me see how much she cares. He is my everything. He has changed who I am. He makes me strive to meet my goals. I hope one day when he is older I can tell him all about his childhood and newborn stage. I want him to know how much we love him and that we would do anything for him. I want the best for him, Abbie, and Becka. All three of them are the loves of my life. I would do ANYTHING for all three of them. I hope all of you who are reading this would do the same for your kids and significant other if you have kids and S.O. I hope that Preston and Abbie good luck in all they do and that they become successful and don't have to worry about if they can pay their bills or if they will have enough money for food. I want them to have the best life they can have.

Basically, I have the best life I could ask for. I'm so blessed to have all three of them in my life. I never want that to change. They all are something special in my mind and have a special place in my heart. If they ever leave, I will feel so empty. I will have a huge hole in my heart.
Thanks for reading!