Lately life has been way too hard and I feel like giving up. I have a job. I have a boyfriend. I have 2 kids. I have a sick grandmother. Trying to deal with all of that is horrible. I can't take it anymore. The kids are cranky. I'm stressed out. I snap at Ryan for the stupidest things and then we get into a fight. And then when we get into a fight and start yelling Preston starts crying and Abbie starts going crazy because I don't rush to his side right away because honestly, this sounds wrong, this is the time I wish I don't have kids. I love them both with all of my heart but it's just too much to deal with. I can take both of them to his parent's house but I just feel weird leaving Abbie there because she isn't their own grand-daughter. They treat her like she is. It's just weird. I think I might take them down tomorrow night. But I'm not sure yet. Maybe Erin, Ryan's sister, will take them. She loves kids in general but she loves both of them with everything she has. That woman deserves a medal for all the times came to rescue us so we didn't go insane. I just wish I could snap my fingers and everything was normal again.
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2 years ago
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I'm sorry you are having such a hard time right now. I wish I wasn't leaving for a week- I would tell you to bring your kids to me and I will watch them so you can go shop in Harrisburg....maybe when I get back from vacation.
If it helps any- I have 4 step kids. My parents don't think of them as any different then Ashlyn and Riley. They treat them the same and watch them, etc for us when we need help. So I am sure Ryan's parents really don't see a difference and love Abbie just the same.
I really hope things get better soon!
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