a year of crazy!

Hey it's a Ashely!
It's been forever since I've blogged and you probably don't remember me, but hey, that's ok :)
Anyway, I've had a crazy year and figured I'd update you incase you do remember me. If you remember after I graduated in December of 2008 from Penn State I went back home for the holidays and broke up with Natalie's dad because of many problems, it was for the better and the 3 of us couldn't be happier. Natalie is my younger daughter, she's going to be 2 this summer and Megan is my older daughter who will be 5 in September. I eventually returned to State College and had a long term substituting job until the end of the school year. In April I had to resign from my position because of health problems and move back home to New York. I was extremely sad about this. I started looking for jobs around my hometown doing anything in the school that I was qualified to do, I was willing to go work at McDonald's part time. I willing to do almost anything. I found a job in Binghamton and moved there in August and made some amazing friends. The last 11 months of life have probably been the best except for my 4 years of college. I couldn't ask for better people to meet. It was just my kids and I until I got a roommate in December who was going to be my student teacher in January. It was amazing. She's moving out at the end of the week and I'm moving out at the end of the month. I'm going to miss Callie (Cal) so much. We would stay up late talking about our problems or talking about just anything. We would go to dinner, go for ice cream, go for car rides, and go for walks together. She's like the sister I left back home. We were always together, except when she was with her boyfriend.

From the time I split with Natalie's dad until Valentine's day of this year, I remained single. It was just my kids and I. It was amazing and I couldn't have had it any other way. My boyfriend is amazing. We're only dating 4 months, but I'm moving down to Hershey to be with him because we're together every weekend and the drive is insane and it gets annoying. Also, we're expecting a child together on November 13th of this year. Before you ask, I was on the pill. But both of us couldn't be happier. I have a long term sub job down there for the first 6 weeks of the school year which will take me to the first week of October and then I think I'm going to just sub at the schools around him and then look for a job while I'm off with the baby. We definitely can't live on what he makes.. some people say we can, but we can't.

I think that is all.. wow. I'll hopefully try to post more, but I doubt that :) have a lovely summer. :D

confessions.

I don't always get along with my boyfriend like I should. We fight too much. But we make up super fast. And that's one thing I really like about him :)

I cry almost daily because my kids stress me out. I'm not perfect, therefore I don't react to them the way I should sometimes.

I tell my boyfriend I'm ok when I'm really not.

I let my kids stay up too late and I myself stay up too late.

I don't always eat healthy because I don't always have the time to, but I try to feed my kids as healthy as I can.

I try to be the best person that I can.. but that doesn't always happen. People get to you and you breakdown. You snap.

update.

Wow, i can't believe it's been so long since i've updated! I've been soo busy! Everyone is doing really well here!

Abbie is turn 6 in nine days! I can't believe she's turning 6 and she's going into 1st grade next year! I feel like it was just yesterday I was sitting in my bathroom with a positive pregnancy test and crying because I had no clue how I was going to balance my freshman year of college and a newborn, but here we are, 6 years later, and she's a healthy little girl and she's so smart. I'm so proud of her! She lost 1 tooth and has 1 loose one! She's going to play soccer in the fall and is just finishing t-ball!

Preston is doing fabulous too! He definitely calmed down a lot. He doesn't run around the house like a maniac. He plays with his sisters really well and can hold Landon really well, I'm really impressed! He's only 28 months old so I can't start him in pre-school yet this year, but I could next year if I wanted to but I don't think I will. I can't believe I'm already thinking about pre-school for him! geeze!

Katy is doing great too. She's walking everywhere and never stops. She has almost all her teeth I think, she never lets you look in her mouth so I never get a chance to look. She talks all the time. She says "mama" "dada" "caca" -cat "baba" -bottle "ball" plus some other and her gibberish :)

Landon is doing as good as a 2.5 week old can do! I can't believe he's 2.5 weeks old already. He barely cries. Only when somethings wrong or one of his sisters or brother bothers him. He eats like a champ! When he's awake in the middle of the night for a feeding he goes right back to sleep when I rock him. I am so in love with this kid! :)

Ryan is doing great. He is doing great with the kids. If i need a break he has no problem taking them to the park or letting me go to the bedroom for a little and playing with them. He's wonderful with them! He does not have a full time teaching job for next year so in a way that's good because it will save us money because he will be able to be home with the kids if he's not working. He's looking. I'm looking for a new job!

I'm doing great. I'm doing like 15-20 of the 30lbs I gained in the pregnancy. We walk everynight. It's great. I got a job offer at a school a little farther away but making more money. It would probably be more in the long run.. I have to figure it out. I'm not sure if I'm going to take it or not. I have to figure out what the area is like and at my district I didn't plan to go back to work until the 27th of September because I used 2 weeks of my maternity leave and was going to use the remaining 4 at the beginning of the year. I just need time to figure it out.

My sister Caitlin, the one that has lived in my basement for almost 2 years now, is moving out finally! Why? She's going back to college. She dropped out after she Brandon and Emalle even though she swore she wouldn't. She was majoring in nursing. She's going to Penn State main campus, with my brother, to major in Pre-med. Even though she'll have to go 4 years there and then 4 years to med school and then do at least a 4 year residency and not be done until she's 32, she's still going to do it. She really wants to do what's right for her family and I'm so proud of her! Because of Penn State UP rules, she'll have to live in a dorm for her freshman year and her boyfriend, Brandon, and Emalle are either getting an apartment up there or living with the family he has up there. Then her sophomore year they're going to get an apartment or some sort of off-campus housing. I could not be happier for her! :)

I forgot to mention, in 24 days, Ryan and I are getting married! :D

Hope you all are having a fantastic summer so far! :D

Landon gerald :)

After an almost 19 hour labor, I'm happy to announce the birth of a precious baby boy! 

Landon Gerald was born today, may 29th, at 4:49pm. He was 8lbs 1oz and 20in long. He has beautiful blue eyes and and a ton of hair! 

I could not be happier! 

No baby!

No baby yet. I'm thinking by wednesday. Ryan says by Friday, which is my birthday. Whatever.
We have decided on names.
If it's a boy it's going to start with an L. And the middle name will start with a G. Any guesses?
If it's a girl it's going to start with an S. And the middle name is going to start with an N. Any guesses?
What do you think I'm having?
Birthday?
Weight?
Length?
:)

Here's mine:
I've changed to boy. Not saying the name!
I'm guessing the 26th. 7lbs. 1oz. 19in.
Hoping for blue eyes too :)

Another baby update :D

I had another doctors appointment today, and I was 2cm dilated. I'm supposed to "relax and take it easy" until I deliver! 
He gave me a note and I'm off work until our first inservice day of next year! That made me pretty happy :) 
I'm thinking I'm going to go either this week or next!! :)   

Baby update!

-Everything is fine if you were wondering.. :)
-at my doctors appointment yesterday I was 1cm dilated! I've been feeling some pretty strong contractions every now and then but I don't think it's anything to be worried about!
-I'm due in 3 weeks and 3 days. That's pretty exciting. :)
-I'm pretty convinced that s/he is going to make his/her appearence before then.
-I'm also convinced s/he is going to be a big baby.
-Ryan thinks it's a boy. I think it's a girl. I hope it's a boy. But I really don't care. :)

Happy mothers day!